Easter to Easter

Last Easter the photo below was taken with all my family. I was so happy to have a picture taken with the whole gang but when I got home I had a moment where I realized I had really let myself go too far with the whole eating thing. It was very sad for me to see this picture and how big I look in it and still is to this day. I love that I was loved and supported by my husband, friends and family despite my crazy addiction to food and the subsequent weight but when I saw this I knew it was time to make a change. Now a year later I feel so much better for the decision I have made to lose the weight. In just under a year I have lost over 50 lbs. with the help of the B12 shots and the phetermine. I have tried to be sensible about things and have periods where I do not take the pills to allow myself to adjust to the new weight and to figure out how to eat appropriately for that weight category. I knew this would draw the process out a little but it has been well worth it to watch as my body and my self confidence have changed. I joked that I have been very vain since I lost the weight but the truth is I am just really happy to have finally had the resolve and committment to make the change I have wanted for so long.
I do have a serious looming fear about gaining the weight back and I dread thinking that one day I will allow myself to go as far as I did before. Perhaps though that fear is what will "keep me honest" and push me away from allowing myself to go all crazy with food again. I regret not really trying to lose the weight earlier but I am so happy to be at this point in my life surrounded by people who love me and support me so I can celebrate the new me with pride.

This is my Easter 2011 photo with a very smiley Bubbas!