Easter to Easter

Last Easter the photo below was taken with all my family. I was so happy to have a picture taken with the whole gang but when I got home I had a moment where I realized I had really let myself go too far with the whole eating thing. It was very sad for me to see this picture and how big I look in it and still is to this day. I love that I was loved and supported by my husband, friends and family despite my crazy addiction to food and the subsequent weight but when I saw this I knew it was time to make a change. Now a year later I feel so much better for the decision I have made to lose the weight. In just under a year I have lost over 50 lbs. with the help of the B12 shots and the phetermine. I have tried to be sensible about things and have periods where I do not take the pills to allow myself to adjust to the new weight and to figure out how to eat appropriately for that weight category. I knew this would draw the process out a little but it has been well worth it to watch as my body and my self confidence have changed. I joked that I have been very vain since I lost the weight but the truth is I am just really happy to have finally had the resolve and committment to make the change I have wanted for so long.
I do have a serious looming fear about gaining the weight back and I dread thinking that one day I will allow myself to go as far as I did before. Perhaps though that fear is what will "keep me honest" and push me away from allowing myself to go all crazy with food again. I regret not really trying to lose the weight earlier but I am so happy to be at this point in my life surrounded by people who love me and support me so I can celebrate the new me with pride.

This is my Easter 2011 photo with a very smiley Bubbas!

Been A While...

Just to show I haven't gone off the rocker or umm....wagon I mean.

Stats:

CW: 215

SW: 268

Total Weight Lost So Far: 53 pounds!!!!

220s Baby!!!

SW: 268

LW:228

CW:224

Out with the Old In with the New

It has been a recent undertaking of mine to start weeding out the clothes that no longer fit me and to start incorporating clothes that are my size now. My clothes had been getting so bad that when I would raise my arms to tie my hair back my pants would slip off. It was to the point where I would have to constantly be pulling up my pants all the time. Even the jeans I used to have to diet to get into are kind of too loose (although they are my favorite jeans now cause they are just loose enough to be really comfie and look great).

I started out at target like a week or two ago and then met up with Audre last weekend and got some more. It is so nice to go shopping and to be able to shop at stores that aren't specializing in plus sized clothing. And since I have gotten clothes that fit me better I have been getting a lot of compliments from people who are noticing the weight loss more. I guess my old big clothes were kinda hiding my shape a lot.

Goodbye Old Clothes

New grey top from The Loft and black work pants from Target

Ahhh motherhood...

New pink top from the Loft and my old jeans

I have some more new clothes that as I get pictures I will post on here. I am just so proud of these!!!

New STATS

It has been a long time since I updated my STATs so here they are:

SW: 268
CW: 228

40 Pounds Lost!!!

Current BMI: 33.7

Checking-In

I am super happy to report that I am in the 220s. I don't think I have been in the 220s since I was in high school--early high school even. I don't know if I really see a change in myself right now but I do feel one and my clothes are all falling off. I am looking forward to getting some clothes that fit sometime soon. I am waiting until after Christmas in hopes that I will have some gift cards. I am pretty proud though. It was such a huge moment to stand on the scale and see that number staring back at me. I know the weight loss has been slower than I had originally planned but that makes it even better in a way. I am just trying to look to the future for more!

Reaching for More

So it has been a long journey so far but this has been the most weight I have ever lost. I feel pretty proud of what I have accomplished at this point and I am totally jazzed to do some more. I feel like the vacation renewed my desire to lose weight and I am ready to set some new goals. I may not have been at 190 my this vacation but I sure felt great and noticed a difference all around.